Butterflies on the subway

Ever just have one of those delightful moments when things are just understood between you and someone else? Love those. In fact, I had one just the other day on the subway. I was coming home from meeting with my spiritual director. I got on at St. George and sat down. I happen to just glance over and see a rather cute boy sitting in the juxopposite seat. I did a double take/lingering look. I tried to make it look casual. Apparently it wasn't casual enough because the gentleman sitting next to said boy happened to notice me looking, he smiled at me and went back to his newspaper.

Just before getting to Bathurst, the cute boy stood up and moved toward to door. To get there, he had to pass me, so I moved my bag to let him go by. He quietly said "Thank you", and I said "You're welcome". There was a small moment. I could feel the cute boy was looking at me as the train was coming to a stop. I'm certain I blushed, but still couldn't bring myself to stare right back at him. I just locked my eyes on the floor. I barely stole a glance just as the boy stepped off the train (and out of my life). At that moment, the gentleman reading his newspaper looked directly at me again and said "Why'd you let him get away?" I blushed, smiled and laughed.

It was a moment.

Broken Bloc Fiest Raising Woot!

Karl, you are officially my favourite person of the weekend. Yes, the weekend only. ;)

Why?

Well, because on Friday after work I got a phone call that set me in a great mood. Karl called and told me he had a free ticket for me to go see the concert on Olympic Island on Saturday. Wow! Let me see...spend the day packing or got see Fiest, Bloc Party and Broken Social Scene...hmm...Yeah, no contest. (Please note this news came just before I got the internet back - uh, heck ya!)

So, as you can guess, Saturday turned out to be a very good day. I woke up in the morning, went to see an apartment, came home and organized getting my ticket from my friend Martine. That turned out really well, because I went just at brunch time, and we had pancakes, and spend a few minutes chatting, it was awesome. After I got my ticket and arranged the meeting time for the concert, I headed home and did a little bit of packing. It was good, fairly productive, though I realize now that I totally missed an afternoon BBQ I was supposed to go to...oops, nothing serious. Then the concert crew, consisting of myself, Martine, Lisa L. and Martine's brother Phil and his gf Becca were off to the ferry so we could take in the concert. Karl was already over there seeing as he was filming the event (the whole reason the ticket was free) and we got to see him briefly before we found a great little niche to sit and watch Fiest. Very cool, very laid back. She sang beautifully seeing as she was complaining of having a terrible flu. Then we managed to score even better seats to watch Bloc Party and BSS on a slight incline. Bloc Party was great! We danced and enjoyed the summer sun. After a small food break, it was time for BSS! They were so good too. It's my first time seeing them live, and it was sooo worth it. They played until almost 11! Wow! So good.

After the show was over, and we had the necessary bathroom run, we all headed over to the beach for a few minutes. Marty took some great photos of Lisa, Becca and I swinging, and such. It was so nice to have sand on our feet and to feel free of the business of Toronto. Then we got on the ferry, interestingly enough, right next to Amy Milan and the entire band/horn section. hehehe. Very cool again.

Overall, one of my better summer Toronto Saturdays. And all thanks to Karl.

(giggly voice) I like you, Karl, hehehe.

Just tired

It seems I can't get enough sleep lately. I constantly find myself dozing on the subway, kind of embarassing if you ask me, and I don't sleep enough at night. Tonight after work, I went to sleep for what was supposed to be 30 min, more like 3 hrs. I haven't eaten yet, I'm getting an internet fix, then packing then bed again. I feel awful physically, and more awful mentally because I'm letting down JKKB on their very last show. I just can't muster the energy. Awful.

An Incovenient Truth

I went to see this movie last night, thanks to my friend Karl, who treated a whole bunch of us. I suggest that all of you see it. It's a well made movie, and it doesn't come over quite as heavy handed as you would think. Rather, it's a really interesting scientific and political look into the issue of global warming. Some of the facts discussed are just astonishing, and I pray that we do see the truth of the matter and all start to do something about it.

One can walk for miles on ones own, but if there are people following along too, it makes it all the more bearable. The same goes for daunting tasks like saving this planet. Sure, it's a huge undertaking, but loosing our one and only earth shouldn't be a sacrifice made to laziness and ingnorance. If we all make small changes, they will add up. History proves this. One person's step out in faith can start a revolution if others see the worth in undertaking it. Look at Ghandi.

Let's start praying with our feet for change.

Sad update.

Aaron Kelly passed away last Thursday.

May God bless his family and friends.

No woman, no cry.

Sorry loyal readers, I am once again behind in my updates. This time if for another reason. Alas, I do not currently have internet in my home. (NNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOO!!!!) Yes, it's true, I am without my daily internet cocktail consisting of MSN Messenger, Gmail emails, Blogger, Flickr, and MySpace. I call this cocktail "Time Waster". At least I can blog from work on my breaks.

My friends were right, once I did have a life, now I just have a computer and a modem.

Little girl

Thank heaven for being someone's little girl.

This week at home has been a really nice treat. Although I have done a lot of socializing outside, I'm really glad to be able to come home to Mum and Dad at night. Sometimes you just need that. It's nice to walk in a have a little congratulatory 'prezzie' waiting for you along with a packet of red licorice (my fav!).

Also, Mum bought some of my favourite foods to BBQ - lamb and steak. I've had a very comfy bed to sleep in, and I've got a great garden to sit in. It's surprising how much I find I have a love/hate relationship with Toronto. I love it when I'm there, but I hate the concrete. That's another element. KW has fresh air... and grass. And it's still considered getting fresh air when you're drinking on a patio, rather that smogginess. It's lovely. Plus, Mum's garden is a treat to be in. It's got lots of lovely flowers. Sigh.

It's just funny, you know, coming back home. No matter how old you get, how independent you want to feel, there is always a part of you that can be charmed by having someone care for you. Maybe that's part of what we're all searching for, something to replace the sense of home. Until I find it, I'm gonna enjoy every minute of having a "Mummy" and "Daddy".

Goodbye for now Ryan!

Ryan should be off to Europe today. Gonna miss you, kid. Take care of you, and let me know what you're up to and how you're doing.

God bless!

Adventures in Tetris land

This week is just getting crazier and crazier. To recap, I'm in Waterloo with my team, getting to know them, and was hopefully going to attend some meetings. Alas, turns out that's not really happening. There was a "crisis" my regular job site. And by crisis, I meant a pipe bursting launching stagnant water into the call centre.

(insert Mike Myers Scottish accent here) Toronto douwn! Toronto douwn!

So, what does that mean for me? It means I got the lovely priveledge of hopping back on the phones for part of the day, and it means that things are just a little bit hectic. Sigh.

Adventures it is.

A crushtastic weekend

It's been a crazy weekend. Lots of fun stuff going on and lots of sleep. Starting this past Thursday, I volunteered doing FOH (front of house) stuff for Queen's Players Toronto's The OCSI. Very fun show, and it's just nice to be out with the Playaz again (especially because they are all so crushtastic!) Thursday was opening night, and although I wish there could have been more audience participation, I think everything went quite well.


Friday was a very busy day - it's was Ryan's last day at work. Wow, everyone is really going to miss that kid. It was gifts, coffees, and food galore at the office (yes, Derek, I did get another cookie). I've gotta admit it was a little hard to stay on track with everything work wise, seeing as I was also being Ryan's social convener and secretary. Grr. Alas, it all worked out really well. After the work day was done, we went and had a few drinks and some food next door at the Firkin, and it was overall a very good night. (Ugh, I'm gonna miss that kid).

Saturday I slept in and spent the rest of the day packing up my kitchen stuff while watching my taped episode of of Ultimate Fighter 3. (p.s. I can't believe how the first semi-final fight went down. My Canadian boy wussed out. Oooh that makes me mad. At least it was a good fight up until the end. Hope next week is less disappointing). The evening was spent doing FOH for Playaz again. Lots of fun! The show was really good, much bigger audience, bigger laughs all topped off with a trip to Mel's for Moutine (meat poutine). Ok, please note, I did not go the mout route, I went just shared a poutine with a friend - we might have even shared a moment. ;) Sigh.

Today has been pretty relaxed. I slept in again, seeing as I went to bed at 3:30 am it's justified, and packed my bags for KW. Yep, she's home for a week. I've got meetings in Waterloo for work, and I'm excited about meeting the team. It was nice to even get picked up in Toronto by my colleagues, two of which I was meeting in person for the first time. Very cool.

I'll keep you posted on the week of crazy Kay-dub fun.

Summer Toronto Urban Hipster FTers.

Tonight was a random evening spent with my urban hipster Freedomize pals. After a quick dinner and jaunt to Honest Ed's to get more Rubbermaid containers for packing, I hopped on my bike and met up with Andrew and Jason for a few oh-so-covert beers on the side of the road. Yes, we sat near Oakwood and St.Clair (there is a school park there) and drank German beer out of travel mugs. We just enjoyed sitting outside. We were all actually meetin up to go to a prayer meeting at Rachel's with a few other peeps. No sense in going sober to that kind of thing. ;)

Just as we were about head over, Lisa the knitter and hipster supreme rode by on her assbike, and took a minute to sit down with us. She was admittedly a little tipsy too from a Physics shinding. Aha! I love Freedomizers.

Finally we sauntered over to Rachel's and enjoyed her treats of cheese and crackers and tons of awesome German chocolate. Then we chatted some and prayed some. Then I hopped on my bike and rode home. It was great.

I love my church.

Gone golfin'

Work has been fun lately. I've been learning lots, trying to get into the groove of what can and can't be done to accomodate people, and learning the new computer programs. Somehow, I've managed to get two free lunches and a some other free goodies over the last few days. I swear, I really am becoming Ryan 3.0 (one better than a replacement). Just kidding. I could never step into Ry's shoes, at least not without using tons of TP!

Speaking of Ryan, my trainer has been working really hard this week. (Note: dripping sarcasm). Hard enough that he ended up golfing this past Monday and I was left to my own devices. Just as well, I learned a lot by getting on with things myself, and I think Ryan very much welcomed the break. He's been really thinking outside the office lately, and understandably so. If I was about to pack up for two months in Europe in about a week's time, my mind would be elsewhere too. Coupled with leaving the company all together, heck, I don't know that I would even make it in! Ha! What's even funnier is that he was accidentally deleted from the office system, so even if he wanted to, he can't really do much work. Maybe he planned it...Golfing? Hacking is more like it.

Honestly, I've gotta admit, I'm not sure that I could ever really follow in Ryan's steps. There more time I'm around him, the more I notice just how much of a positive impact this crazy kid has had on this office. Wow. He's leaving broken hearts everywhere. Like I mentioned once before, Ryan is a golden kid. Seldom will you find such a youngin with such a good head. I know it's going to be huge when he leaves, and well, I know I will miss him dearly. For really.

So, Ryan, I'm gonna miss you kid. Lots of love!

A moment for a life I once knew

Friends, today I want to take a moment to reflect on an a tragic accident that has happened, involving a friend and classmate of mine from back in Labrador. His name is Aaron Kelly. He was one of my first crushes, the boy who had the guts to dress up like Garth for Halloween, and the boy who inspired me to listen to Weezer. Although I haven't seen or talked to him in about seven years, the events have hit home, and I don't know what else to do but shed a tear, and take a moment.

Aaron has been teaching in Korea for about year now, along with another girl from Labrador City. About two weeks ago, I got word that he had a very serious fall from a cliff and was critically injured. News has been spotty, but what I have managed to piece together is that he was apparently running/walking in the street and fell through some sort of gap and landed on a concrete culvert. Either way, he sustained serious head injuries as was brought to hospital to be stabilized and has been in a coma. Late last week, I heard that luckily his parents and good friend has managed to make it out there from Lab City to be by his side. Alas, new also followed that things took a turn for the worst, and all brain activity ceased (if there was any to begin with). Last I heard, his parents chose to have the nutrition and medications keeping him alive. The vigil remains to see if and when he has passed, which most likely happened this past weekend. I have yet to hear more.

So, please, I beg of you all, pray for his family and for the rest of his soul. God has his reasons for this, and I firmly believe He is in control. I just wish...Aaron would be 25 on Decemeber 29th. He is exactly two months younger than me. It's all so surreal. I don't know what to think or feel.

I shall just shed a tear and say a prayer.

Catching up (with a head cold)

My weekend has been overshadowed with the fact that I now officially have a head cold. No fun. It just sort of attacked me this afternoon. Yuck. Right after my lovely catch up brekkie with my friend Kris Dymetrenko, whom I haven't seen since 3rd year at Queen's. Turns out he's in town and living in my hood. Sweet. Went to a dinner party, ate lots, and made it home ok. Ready to hit the hay, but feel a little bad (and slightly relieved) I decided to be sensible and not go to another party after the dinner party.

Everynow and then I make good decisions.

Packing sucks the big one

One sure fire way to realize (quickly) just how much shit you can collect over a two year span is to move house. It's awful. I'm constantly finding more things I want to get rid of, but the minute I do there is something else in my way. And tonight I had to go through 2 Rubbermaid boxes until I could find one to fit all my CDs and movies. Yikes. I've got a lot of those. I haven't even started on books yet, which is not so bad...but in the back of my head I'm always reminded that the other half of them are currently residing in KW. At least I've got month to get things straightened out, and then I can look forward to a newer, bigger place. (The only major dissapointment in that department of late is that the apartment below my friend Rachel is no longer coming available in September. I've gotta search for something good in the meantime).

On a lighter note, things are picking up at work. It's nice to hear Ry tell me that I'm doing a good job at catching on quickly, though it does still feel slightly strange to be sitting at his desk, answering emails and such like he used to. Wow. I'm becoming more growed up. :)

I'm glad the weekend is coming up - I've got to squeeze in more packing, but I think it'll be ok. That and I would like to sleep a little too. I've got a mini cold that's just plain annoying, especially coupled with allergies.

Boo on it all.